Where Art Thou Sleep???

 Hey everyone! I just woke up from an entire nine hours of sleep, so I’m feeling like it’s time for blog writing. I mean, technically, it’s been an hour since I woke up, but I do want to be able to do this week justice even if it was a little mean when it came to sleep deprivation.

Monday was pretty boring all things considered. I went to my class and was mostly bored there and then I went to the help session for the R assignment. I had a question on the last two problems, but Kezia wanted us to work through them in order so I had to stay for almost the full time with nothing to do until the very end which was very frustrating, but I learned a few new things so it wasn’t all bad. After that, I came home and took a nap because I was really tired (this will become a theme for the week). When I woke up, I went to work on my WILD 6500 math homework and ended up needing to call Mas because I was too dumb to remember how the quadratic formula worked (I am so sorry Ms. Greg, I have failed you), before heading up to meet with Sara on campus to talk over what the plan is. Nothing much came from the meeting, but I was given a direction to research to figure things out, which is nice. Then we had lab meeting, with Lexi leading to talk about the coyote research everyone is helping them with. I lead things next week, so hopefully I do well—I’ll be talking about my research and SCFAs so it shouldn’t be too bad. When I got home I was ‘convinced’ to go to FHE with my roommates. Big. Mistake. There was a weird guy there who tried to socialize with me and was in my personal space which sucked, so I left early while on a call with my mom just in case. That done, I settled into relax for the night and ended up watching the newest manhunt video with Annie, which was great. Dream won. XD.

Tuesday was probably the roughest day of the week, I think. I had a panic attack at 3 am in the morning for no apparent reason. Like I literally woke up having one and was left pretty discombobulated for the rest of the day, and extremely anxious too. I was nauseous and stuff by the time I got to institute and was even left gagging in the bathroom for a little bit. Couldn’t focus very well on Institute though, so that kind of sucked. Once I was done, I worked on my presentation for Thursday and organized myself for the week. This helped my anxiety go down a little, but it was back with a vengeance when my neuro class came since we had a guest speaker for the Pain unit. Her teaching style was different and it made my note taking go into overdrive and I was worried I’d forget to write something important. You know, usual class anxiety that I don’t have with Sara because her slides are nice. I got through it though, and even did my presentation very well, at least I think. When I got home, it was a mad house so I kind of just gave up and made myself more noodles to have the leftover spaghetti sauce with since it wasn’t worth dealing with all the social stuff going on around me. I retreated to my room pretty soon after and stayed down there until Kenzie came down and interrupted prayer to tell me that no one could get in contact with Allie. I told her it was fine and that she was with Bracken but no one listened to me until I used my mad skills (read: checked my un-updated tools app) to find Bracken’s phone number so they could text him. Apparently her phone had died and she wouldn’t be back for another hour. People then cajoled me into making a cake, which I did right as Allie got back and could deal with everyone else. Sadly, that wasn’t the end to my night as it was another bad night in a row where I didn’t feel safe/calm enough to sleep at all, but once I talked stuff out with Mom and the Hammer kicked in, I hardcore passed out which was nice.

Wednesday had me waking up groggy, which was significantly better than Tuesday’s start. There  was no Q&A session this week since there wasn’t a reading assignment, so the first thing I did was put the laundry in and go shopping. I tried to focus, but I was kind of failing, so I ended up using Wednesday as a chill day for me. I watched the playthrough for Deltarune Chapter 2, which is AWESOME. I would never be able to play it, but it is so well done, holy crap. Especially with the Snowgrave ending. So much angst and even more clues as to what is going on with Kris. Spamton was amazing and I love his battle music!!!!! And they incorporated the Charlie Brown dance too! I could talk about it for a while, but it did just come out last week so I don’t want to spoil too much if there are people who are going to play it that read this (don’t know who you would be, but just in case). Just know that the music is awesome and I’m totally listening to it right now as I write this post. I then met up with Meagan for our monthly dinner date. This time we went to Juniper take out, which was really cool, but their food needed salt badly. It was nice to escape an hang out with her again, so I very much appreciated it. When we got back, I was still pretty hyped about Deltarune, so I played Undertale (yes, they are anagrams of each other, and I’m sure Toby Fox did that on purpose), and I got super far! I beat Mettaton and got all the way to Asgore—even doing on trial run against him, before calling it a night and going to bed. The videogame was a great distraction from my stupid sleeping fear that I’ve apparently developed, so it was really nice.

On Thursday, Allie came with me to institute to help me with the whole boy issue there, but of course that was the day he wasn’t there so it was kind of awkward. Because she was with me though, I actually went home during the break between classes and went back to playing Undertale. I got through Asgore (first try of that day) and the Omega Flowey battle (I only died twice! That’s a miracle, though I think they changed the difficulty because it was a lot easier than I remembered it being) which had me feeling a little more confidant. I then went to neuro class, where we talked about the visual sensory system. It went fine, and I actually think I understood most of everything, though I did fumble a little during my presentation by mixing up Meyer’s loop with another word that started with M. But it was fine. I had forgotten my headphones at home though so I didn’t have any music to listen to on the walk home, and so I think that affected my ability to calm down and focus by the time I got back, but I tried working on various projects before giving up and calling it a night. Sadly, it was another rough night and it didn’t work out as well as Tuesday night did.

Friday saw me waking up throughout the night before at 4:35, I gave up on sleep. I couldn’t go back to sleep and I had class soon anyways, so I figured I’d be productive. This lead to me working on TA stuff, before realizing that SADIST HAD AN ANIMATION COMING OUT THAT DAY AT 11:00 AM, heck yeah! Anyways, that got me hyped up, so it was a little hard to focus in class along with the dismal amount of sleep I’d gotten, but I got through it. Allie said she’d watch the animation with me, and I had enough time to get a half hour nap before it dropped. It was SO good, oh my gosh. YEEEEEEEEEEEE. Anyways, after rewatching that a dozen times and putting on one of Wilbur’s old Phasmaphobia videos, I was able to sit down and focus on researching how I was going to investigate the serotonin part of my research. It took an hour before I figured it would probably be best to work with Tph-1, but I’m still in the works with how that’s going to work and I have some more research to do, but that means I should be able to start slicing brains again soon, which will be nice. Though, chances are, that won’t happen until after Sara goes on leave, which will suck, but Lexi will still be around if needed. After that, I went upstairs to work on my final project, and got two sections in, before my focus went kapoot and latched onto Undertale again. And then Allie and Annie wanted to watch Merlin, which was awesome. We got through the part where Will died (the first of many of his close friends/family dying jeez louis but I love this show). Allie said we had to stop there though, so we called it a night.

After that, I practically passed out, and slept for nine hours, which was a much needed reprieve from the rest of week. And now here I am, working on my blog in the kitchen with Annie, because she needed a study buddy to help her focus (spoiler-alert: I don’t think it’s working). I haven’t eaten yet, but I promise I’ll try after this is published, but I’m pretty sure it will not be a food day sadly. Oh well, I’ll do my best. Anyway, I think that’s it for the week. Until next time, bye!